Jessie J Says She Feels ‘Robbed’ of Time with Son Sky after Breast Cancer Diagnosis and Admits She ‘Thought I Would Die’

Jessie J is opening up about the challenges of balancing motherhood with her breast cancer journey.

During an episode of the Great Company with Jamie Laing podcast released Tuesday, Aug. 19, the 37-year-old singer expressed her regret over missing precious moments with her 2-year-old son, Sky, while undergoing treatment.

“Yesterday I sobbed, because I miss my boy. I can’t be a mom like I want to be a mom and I feel robbed,” Jessie J said of her son, whom she shares with boyfriend Chanan Safir Colman.

“The worst part is… I feel like cancer has robbed me of memories with my boy,” she added. “And anyone with a toddler knows that they change so much in that space of time. You blink and he’s chatting.”

Jessie J first revealed her breast cancer diagnosis publicly on the podcast in May, although that episode wasn’t released. She returned for the latest episode to discuss her journey following a mastectomy in June.

The “Price Tag” singer admitted that some days are “awful” and shared that early on in her diagnosis, she feared she “was going to die.”

“I had been scared. I was like, ‘I’m going to die,’ ” she said. “I had moments where I was like, ‘This is going to go left and I’m going to die.’ At that point, I didn’t know if I was going to have extensive treatment. I didn’t know what it was going to be.”

Jessie J recounted discovering a lump in her breast, initially told by doctors that it was “probably a cyst.” Tests later confirmed it contained “about 4-5 cm of cancer.”

“I just burst into tears,” she recalled. “I think because I was convinced it wasn’t going to be anything … [The doctors] tell you the result and then they’re like, ‘We’ll be in touch.’ That’s when you’re just like, ‘Right, what happens next?’ ”

Jessie also reflected on her last performance before surgery at the Summertime Ball in London.

“That euphoria and energy was … when I was put to sleep, it was that moment that I replayed in my head,” she said. “It was an unimaginable amount of love I received in that 25 minutes onstage … it was overwhelming.”

Her latest interview follows a recent health update on Instagram, in which Jessie shared that she will need another surgery later this year.